Time - 6/16/07

I can't believe it, but today is the last chemo day in this 2 week cycle. Where does time go? We'll get three weeks off this time (except for the weekly clinic visit and the CT scan on the 29th of course....wouldn't want to go "cold turkey".) Warren has already decided that on the way home this afternoon he wants to stop at the Coldstone Creamery again for a celebratory ice cream dinner! Perhaps I'll remember to bring my camera and post a picture of those particular culinary delights, or would that be cruel and unusual punishment?

Where does time go? Do you ever get the sense that time is not what we think it is, that its not linear and fixed and unspooling off some big time wheel ahead of us? Every now and then if I loosen my focus on it, it begins to feel as if I am standing still and instead of me moving toward the future events in my life, they are moving towards me. I am fixed in space in some ever present now. If you really want to mess with your mind, I want you to imagine that all time (past, present and future) exists now and is all happening simultaneously. Baby you, you and old you are there experiencing what you have, are and will experience. Let's add an additional layer to this, if all of your experience exists simultaneously in the now, wouldn't also all time periods be existing now as well. Its 2007 as well as 1777 or 2347. At some level I believe that this is true, but I'll be damned if I can wrap my mind totally around the concept. I guess to make it work we'd have to throw in the concept of different dimensions of existence too wouldn't we?

Have you ever had any odd experiences around time? Missing time? Time expanding and contracting? Anything else? I'd be interested in hearing about them. I'll give you an example. Once when I was working, I went in on a Saturday because I was extremely busy and had about 8 hours of work that had to be done by Monday morning. The trouble was, with my other obligations for that weekend I only had about 4 hours to put into it. I decided when I went into the office not to focus on lack of time but just to relax and assume that I had all the time I needed. I still don't understand exactly what transpired. The work I had to do didn't suddenly shrink or disappear, but not only did I get it all done, I finished in under the 4 hours time. Time seemed to slow way down for me that day.