Virgos and Raven - 8/31/07

Today is the birthday of my children's father (my ex). Monday is Warren's birthday. I think it strange that both my husbands were Virgos don't you? One might think I'm predictable.

The garage building outside our kitchen window seems to be a new roosting place. Tonight during dinner a huge raven landed in the same spot that the hawk was in last week. When he flew off the wing span must have been over 2 feet. He was impressive.

This is what raven brings.

Magic, Healing, Creation

If a raven totem has come into our life,
magic is at play.
Raven activates the energy of magic
and links it to our will and intention.

With this totem, we can make great changes
in our life;
the ability to take the unformed thought
and make it reality.

The raven shows us how to go into the dark
of our inner self and bring out the light of our true self;
resolving inner conflicts which have long been buried.
This is the deepest power of healing we can possess.

A Popular Belief - 8/29/07

Conversations with God - 8/29/07

I had an acupuncture appointment at 7:00 p.m. tonight which put me in the "city" after dark. Places were well lit and there were a lot of people around so it felt safe. As I was walking past the Whole Foods Market I saw a young man sitting on a bench and I knew he was going to speak to me before he did. I felt it energetically. In a very quiet voice he said "Ma'am, can you help me get something to eat?" If I would have had money easily available I would have given it to him. However, I knew that I had spent all of the currency I could quickly put my hands on. I didn't want to make a stupid mistake and pull out my wallet and fool around getting money out of a zippered pocket where I had a few twenties. I told him I was sorry, but I didn't have a lot of cash available right now. However, I felt guilty about that. What if he was truly hungry and I didn't help him. I asked God to send him the help he needed. Then I said to God, if he's there when I pull the car out and go passed where I had spoken with him, I will see it as a sign that you want me to help him. He wasn't there. As I wondered through the parking lot to get to the street I think I saw him a little way off talking on a cell phone. It doesn't mean he wasn't hungry, it does make it less likely that he was truly in need.

I'm looking for the lesson in that encounter but haven't been able to figure it out yet. There is always a lesson.

Helpful Hint? - 8/28/07

Receiving Grace - 8/19/07

I wish I could paint. I would like to capture some of the strangers that show up in my room at night. Recently a little girl showed up wearing a long white dress. She looked to be about 8 years old, had blond hair and was carrying a parasol with a ruffled edge. There was a pattern of little white flowers on the turquoise green background of the parasol. I got the impression of the name or word "Grace".

All is Well - 8/19/07

"Raven Moon"

Kay suggested that I put on some music and dance my way out of my bad mood. Since the MD has left me with at least 2 left feet, dancing isn't my forte, but I decided she was right....I needed to move. So today I've been working around the house cooking, cleaning, doing laundry and taking a little break from the computer. I'm in a better frame of mind now.

I decided to make a pot of Cream of Broccoli and Cauliflower Soup for dinner tonight and I also baked a loaf of pumpkin bread. Its an overcast, threat of rain, type day so soup seemed like a good idea to me. Of course soup always sounds like a good idea to me. I could live on homemade soup. Some of the soup will go in the freezer so I can take some to my Mother next weekend.

Tomorrow we go back to NIH for a monthly ENT clinic visit and to get some blood work done for the new protocol he's on. We'll just have to go one more time this week for blood work.

I'll spend this evening curled up with a book. Have a great night.

Crabby - 8/17/07

I've been incredibly crabby today. Yes me, the Zen mistress of the universe! My Granddaughter asked me if I got up on the wrong side of the bed this morning and husband laughed. I guess he'd been thinking the same thing but knew better than to ask.

I can't really put my finger on what is causing this. I just feel like I'm being pushed and I don't feel like doing anything. No one is pushing me either and no, it hasn't been that time of the month for many many years now. I know TMI!

I'll be myself again soon I'm sure.

Have a lovely evening.

Homecoming - 8/14/07

Warren was released from the hospital today and we got back home around 2:00 p.m. He has 3 weeks off with no drug, but has to go in for blood work twice a week in that time period. We have an extra trip there next week for his monthly ENT checkup. Even with the trips for the blood work, its a much easier protocol than the last one was.

He was glad to get back home. I think he got tired of having all his meals delivered to him in bed. I think I might like to try that sometime, although without all the needles and pills. The house feels right again with him here. I think it missed him too.

Perseids - 8/13/07

Today's story is about how fluidly the real world and the dream world can weave together. I went to bed around 1:00 a.m. last night. Before I fell asleep I heard 2 very loud grating noises. It sounded like a rusty gate being shoved open. I got up and checked the house and looked outside, but couldn't find the source for the sound. I got back in bed and a short time later I heard a soft pop. I didn't bother to get up again for that one.

I fell asleep and dreamed that I was in an old stone house in the country. It was night and someone had died. I went outside to sit on the porch steps and saw a beautiful meteor shower. I closed my eyes and held out my arms and it felt as if I was being showered with a wonderful golden energy. I felt younger and more vital.

In the dream, I got up and walked across the yard to another building and heard someone knock twice on the outside door of the dream house. I woke up. I heard 2 knocks on my bedroom door which was not closed (no visible one was there).

I thought maybe they want me to get up and look at the Perseids outside. So I got up and looked but I don't think any of my windows face the part of the sky where they would have been visible. At least I got to see the meteor shower in my dream, in a place where the summer night was dark enough to show the stars.

Whatever it was, it was a lovely experience.